I'm not connecting with my body

I feel like my spirit jumped into a foreign body. Why do I not like how I look? It's as if every time I look at a photo or in the mirror I'm seeing something I not expecting. It's not that I think that I'm prettier than what I see, I just have a different notion of how I look.

I'm not saying I'm vane. I'm the opposite. I wear makeup once in a while just for a variation on the same awkward theme. Does Jasmin think I look like a freak? LOL

Is my brain playing tricks on me? I guess it isn't important- I don't see many people anyways. I was never a social butterfly, I mean, moth. =p